Recently something very exciting has happened in my life, I've started to wear eyeliner again. Yes, the wet and tricky kind. This is quite the game changer as I've always thought I was too clumsy to be one of those fancy cat eyed ladies and had abandoned the whole idea many years ago. Last time I've worn eyeliner I think it was the glitter kind, do you remember that stuff? We would often put it on as teenagers when we'd go out for parties and would proudly wear that Christmas-glitter-stuff all year long.
I've been thinking a lot about those teenage years in the past few days and how they were filled with so much playfulness and experimentation (Mom if you're reading this, I never did any drugs or other dangerous stuff, although I did once go swimming from a really high bridge). There are soooo many things about those teenage years I don't miss, but one thing I'd like to get back is that “fake it til you figure it out” attitude we all seemed to have back then.
I started going out to bars around age 16-17 even though the legal drinking age limit in Finland is 18, and in bars often much higher. To get in you had to ooze confidence and pretend to know exactly what you were doing and basically just be a cool cat. It didn't always work and sometimes the bouncers wouldn't let you in, but other times it worked *really* well and I have to admit it was kind of a kick to get in and see that you could pull it off.
I've never stolen anything in my life, well expect some marbles in kindergarten, which I attempted to sneak out by putting them in my panty hose with the unfortunate consequence that they all gathered up into a nice little floppy pouch at the ends of my feet which kinda messed up my whole plan of getting the marbles out unnoticed... Anyways, I've never stolen anything *valuable* but I can imagine it's a similar rush or sensation of getting away with something that you know you shouldn't be doing.
Oh my, do you understand what this means?! I've just found the cure for imposter syndrome!!
Instead of feeling like you don't deserve your success because of the fear that people will see that you're a fraud, you're actually proud that you're an imposter. In those teenage confidence years it's a biggest kick to get away with something you're pretending to be! Wow, I think we all just need to listen to Spice Girls again and no one will have any self doubt anymore because that concept won't even exist in our worlds.
I mean, it's probably not that simple, although I do think the whole “self-doubt and imposter syndrome” discussion needs some new energy and sass thrown into the mix. Maybe we should just put on our glitter eyeliner again, or you know, just the normal black tricky kind, and start being proud for getting away with it.
“This is about girl power so come on!”
What have you done lately that gave you a self confidence boost?
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